Jack O' Roses

Jack O' Roses Lyrics: Robert Hunter Music: Jerry Garcia, [Brian Lesh] This is the seventh song in Robert Hunter's Terrapin Station Suite. It was never played by the Grateful Dead, though Hunter credits the music to Jerry Garcia (note 1). Hunter himself recorded it on his LP "Jack O' Roses" (never issued as a CD). What makes your sweet breast heave, my dear your bright eyes fill with tears? Did Jack O' Roses leave you here those seven lonely years? Had you fear he might be dead unwept in some far land? Or worse that love itself had fled betrayed both heart and hand? (note 2) Jack O' Roses with a fan East of Eden turned built his castles in the sand and all their bridges burned (note 3) Wait for him (note 4) Don't take no other no demon lover who'll be gone at dawn Did you throw your fan too far this time? Well, well, well ... from the lion's den to the morning star to the gates of Hell! The morning star rose into hell three days to shine on Moses and from his solitary cell to free the Jack O' Roses He sprang to saddle like wind, I allow (note 5) for bridle strains of lightning Ride, ride, ride, though tempest howl cruelly and most frightening (note 6) For at the dawn fair Terrapin arose like revelation The morning star reflected in the windows of Terrapin Station Terrapin (note 7) If anyone should ask of you who made this song say the Jack O' Roses and all who played along who rise, climb, fall to win Terrapin What have we to lose from love except what lacks foundation Words can only carve the space we fill with expectation The lion's den lies far behind (note 8) in visions of the damned Jack O' Roses one more time My lady, here's your fan (note 9) Terrapin let me rise, let me fall, let me climb, let me crawl but let me in Accept this fan as a token of what I meant to do for I really do love you

It's the dreaming that's real

Once again I find myself dreaming of you Mon Amour. In my dreams you are the one I let get away which is troublesome as I was the one who left you. You are always just out of reach and it's my own fault as I had you once all to myself for the rest of our lives and I let you go all in the name of doing the right thing. I had you, you were mine and I was yours if only for a small bit of time but it was the happiest I have ever been. I do regret what I did and how people were hurt and this shows up in my dreams as to always being on the outside looking in and never quite connecting with you, fuck that is frustrating some days. I hope you are happy and maybe fate will have us crossing paths one day. I miss you, I really really do. Out on the road in West Marin In a cloud of dust I met two djinn One was bright as pride and thin The other was fat and black as sin Isn't this how all good tales begin The big one looked a lot like you The other one looked just like you too They wound me round, they ran me through A score of lies they swore were true Isn't that what genies always do Night come sudden, dawn be soon Bide my time by the dark of the moon My strange heroes lead me on But when I get there they'll be gone Ever since I was a pup Deal was I'd sing before I'd sup My silver spoon's this beggar's cup And when it's empty I fill up All I have to do is just show up The prophet said all flesh is grass He had a soul like old stained glass A smile as sweet as sasafrass Well that ol' boy can kiss my ass Who the hell can wait for life to pass [chorus] I'm going to Adam's home in a world that we can't see To sing drunk with the angels, play again for free The way that is no way is calling you to me If we don't believe together, we might just cease to be Way down by the shining gate The djinn revealed to me my fate You and I, we've got a date I'll be there, but you'll be late Maybe things really comes to those that wait Those two djinn they couldn't stay Chased away by dawn's first rays They called back as they ran away They told me, "Have a real fine day" Isn't that what genies always say? [chorus] [chorus] A short while back the door flung wide We all saw good luck on the other side The door blew shut but here's the deal Dreams are lies, it's the dreaming that's real It's the dreaming that's real Dreams are lies, it's the dreaming that's real Dreaming that's real It's the dreaming that's real Dreaming that's real Dreaming that's real Dreaming that's real [etc]

What the Fuck

I really have to say what the fuck is wrong with people today. I also want to say a big Fuck You and Fuck Off to two of my three kids. When me and the wife should be enjoying ourselves and doing things for us we get shit on again by our kids. Sven was nice knowing you and I am sorry for my fucking piece of shit daughter for what she has done to you, she was not raised by us to be this way. Justin, Fuck You for bringing your shit and fucked up life into our lives. What makes you think I want your shit in my world. I know now I should of bought that fucking island in the stream so as to get away from all of you assholes who are harshing my mellow.

Most of the time

"Most Of The Time" Most of the time I'm clear focused all around Most of the time I can keep both feet on the ground I can follow the path I can read the sign Stay right with it when the road unwinds I can handle whatever I stumble upon I don't even notice she's gone Most of the time. Most of the time it's well understood Most of the time I wouldn't change it if I could I can make it all match up I can hold my own I can deal with the situation right down to the bone I can survive and I can endure And I don't even think about her Most of the time. Most of the time my head is on straight Most of the time I'm strong enough not to hate I don't build up illusion 'til it makes me sick I ain't afraid of confusion no matter how thick I can smile in the face of mankind Don't even remember what her lips felt like on mine Most of the time. Most of the time she ain't even in my mind I wouldn't know her if I saw her She's that far behind Most of the time I can even be sure If she was ever with me Or if I was ever with her Most of the time I'm halfway content Most of the time I know exactly where it went I don't cheat on myself I don't run and hide Hide from the feelings that are buried inside I don't compromise and I don't pretend I don't even care if I ever see her again Most of the time.

Someone Like You

I heard that you settled down
That you found a girl and you're married now.
I heard that your dreams came true.
Guess she gave you things I didn't give to you.

Old friend, why are you so shy?
Ain't like you to hold back or hide from the light.

I hate to turn up out of the blue uninvited
But I couldn't stay away, I couldn't fight it.
I had hoped you'd see my face and that you'd be reminded
That for me it isn't over.

Never mind, I'll find someone like you
I wish nothing but the best for you too
Don't forget me, I beg
I remember you said,
"Sometimes it lasts in love but sometimes it hurts instead,
Sometimes it lasts in love but sometimes it hurts instead,"
Yeah.

You know how the time flies
Only yesterday was the time of our lives
We were born and raised
In a summer haze
Bound by the surprise of our glory days

I hate to turn up out of the blue uninvited
But I couldn't stay away, I couldn't fight it.
I had hoped you'd see my face and that you'd be reminded
That for me it isn't over.

Never mind, I'll find someone like you
I wish nothing but the best for you too
Don't forget me, I beg
I remember you said,
"Sometimes it lasts in love but sometimes it hurts instead."

Nothing compares
No worries or cares
Regrets and mistakes
They are memories made.
Who would have known how bittersweet this would taste?

Never mind, I'll find someone like you
I wish nothing but the best for you
Don't forget me, I beg
I remember you said,
"Sometimes it lasts in love but sometimes it hurts instead."

Never mind, I'll find someone like you
I wish nothing but the best for you too
Don't forget me, I beg
I remember you said,
"Sometimes it lasts in love but sometimes it hurts instead,
Sometimes it lasts in love but sometimes it hurts instead."

My heart does hurt every day for the one I love and left

You're Gonna Make Me Lonesome When You Go

I've seen love go by my door
It's never been this close before
Never been so easy or so slow.
Been shooting in the dark too long
When somethin's not right it's wrong
Yer gonna make me lonesome when you go.

Dragon clouds so high above
I've only known careless love,
It's always hit me from below.
This time around it's more correct
Right on target, so direct,
Yer gonna make me lonesome when you go.

Purple clover, queen anne lace,
Crimson hair across your face,
You could make me cry if you don't know.
Can't remember what I was thinkin' of
You might be spoilin' me too much, love,
Yer gonna make me lonesome when you go.

Flowers on the hillside, bloomin' crazy,
Crickets talkin' back and forth in rhyme,
Blue river runnin' slow and lazy,
I could stay with you forever
And never realize the time.

Situations have ended sad,
Relationships have all been bad.
Mine've been like verlaine's and rimbaud.
But there's no way I can compare
All those scenes to this affair,
Yer gonna make me lonesome when you go.

Yer gonna make me wonder what I'm doin',
Stayin' far behind without you.
Yer gonna make me wonder what I'm sayin',
Yer gonna make me give myself a good talkin' to.

I'll look for you in old honolulu,
San francisco, ashtabula,
Yer gonna have to leave me now, I know.
But I'll see you in the sky above,
In the tall grass, in the ones I love,
Yer gonna make me lonesome when you go.

Two nights rolled into one

Going to fill in some of the blanks with one post.

Woke up at 4:30 on Monday morning to get a leg up on my first views of Jupiter. There it is was making it way up to the east. Four moons were visible with two on each side. Had quite a bit of atmosphere and the ep's have seen better days but was a joy to look at the Jovian Giant of our solar system through the C8. I managed to knock off four globular clusters before it became too light to play, M4,M80, M62 and M19.

So went out after dark and setup to grab a few looks. Found what I thought was Ceres and went and woke up Donna to show her. The reason I and she confirmed this as Ceres as it was not a pinpoint of light when focused but showed as a reflected object and did not look like a star. Next up was M104, the Sombrero Galaxy. Spent time using the different ep's and we were able to pick out the dark line of dust using averted view. Brought in NGC 4699 and NGC 4697, fuzzies of different sizes basically. Moved to M64 the Blackeye Galaxy and could only resovle so much. Last up was M5 to show what a globular looked like once again.

A big list from the next night 3/31 as I worked on the Virgo Cluster. Looked at 15 Messier's and a few NGC's. Will do these in my next post.