Well a venting of sorts

People suck and once again I got sucked in to that Black Hole I had written about. All I was doing was looking for a friend and someone to hang with and I was a stupid dumbass blinded by someone 20 years younger with a smile that melted my heart. I looked into your eyes and you not once told me you had someone that you have now called your SO. I told you I don't get angry anymore and that is true but I don't like my heart getting ripped out. This is how I heal by writing about my feelings and how I am affected by what went down. Did I say I am a dumbass. I'm just glad that I have lots o money or I might be more upset then I am because I am out almost $450 in tickets and $500 in a chain and necklace that I would not of given you if I had known your truth. In the end I hope you are hurting but I suspect now that will not be the case but I can dream lol. Take care my little Alabama Getaway and next time try not to use the kind and gentle old guy who talked to you when you sat down next to him. We will always have Mexico. For future reference put on your social media that you have an SO as there is nothing what so ever there and it just might avoid a heartbreak. "Box of Rain" Words by Robert Hunter; music by Phil Lesh Copyright Ice Nine Publishing; used by permission. Look out of any window any morning, any evening, any day Maybe the sun is shining birds are winging or rain is falling from a heavy sky - What do you want me to do, to do for you to see you through? this is all a dream we dreamed one afternoon long ago Walk out of any doorway feel your way, feel your way like the day before Maybe you'll find direction around some corner where it's been waiting to meet you - What do you want me to do, to watch for you while you're sleeping? Well please don't be surprised when you find me dreaming too Look into any eyes you find by you, you can see clear through to another day I know it's been seen before through other eyes on other days while going home -- What do you want me to do, to do for you to see you through? It's all a dream we dreamed one afternoon long ago Walk into splintered sunlight Inch your way through dead dreams to another land Maybe you're tired and broken Your tongue is twisted with words half spoken and thoughts unclear What do you want me to do to do for you to see you through A a box of rain will ease the pain and love will see you through Just a box of rain - wind and water - Believe it if you need it, if you don't just pass it on Sun and shower - Wind and rain - in and out the window like a moth before a flame It's just a box of rain I don't know who put it there Believe it if you need it or leave it if you dare But it's just a box of rain or a ribbon for your hair Such a long long time to be gone and a short time to be there Such a long long time to be gone, such a short time to be.